Unknown Outcome

What does the above statement means? There’s a lot of expected inaccuracy that might happen if I yet prepare my final set of questionnaires – I don’t have any at the moment I mean the worse is I don’t even starts working on it. Shit. Fuck. What am I supposed to do man?! Today’s Sept 6th and that nearly close to the mid of this month. My final VIVA is on Oct 10 which I’m now scared to the death in the way preparing those requirement of my thesis. I’m even yet do the SPSS thingy as I have to work simultaneously on both thesis and a script which has successfully sort of knocked me out. Duh. Which’s however has not yet happen but no worries, if I just stay stoned in this thing, then the real terrible nightmares may promptly jots in my own personal life. Just imagine it. Sure. So please get work on those left works, Janet!! Do something or you’ll be dead.

R & Co Episode 13

I did waiting like a whole day of yesterday for an e-mail of Episode 13 scene breakdown from Sharlyza (Astro's Content Manager) and i had just got it later in the evening when that's like around 6.45 p.m. the intend was i should be starts writing the script by the day yesterday because basically i needed 2 days of completing a compile of script in hand so this just late. bit late for 1 day advance right, but does not matter i will really do the real script today and so there's no such thing like excuse as i do have to finish 13 and will starts with 14 by latest tomorrow morning. so got to work everybody.

Who Is Emily Dickinson?

Emily Dickinson (1830-1886) was born in Amherst, Massachusetts, to a family well known for educational and political activity. Her father, an orthodox Calvinist, was a lawyer and treasurer of the local college. He also served in Congress. Dickinson's mother, whose name was also Emily, was a cold, religious, hard-working housewife, who suffered from depression. Her relationship with her daughter was distant. Later Dickinson wrote in a letter, that she never had a mother.

Dickinson was educated at Amherst Academy (1834-47) and Mount Holyoke Female Seminary (1847-48). Around 1850 she started to compose poems - "Awake ye muses nine, sing me a strain divine, / Unwind the solemn twine, and tie my Valentine!" she said in her earliest known poem, dated March 4, 1850. It was published in Springfield Daily Republican in 1852.

The style of her first efforts was fairly conventional, but after years of practice she began to give room for experiments. Often written in the metre of hymns, her poems dealt not only with issues of death, faith and immortality, but with nature, domesticity, and the power and limits of language. From c.1858 Dickinson assembled many of her poems in packets of 'fascicles', which she bound herself with needle and thread. A selection of these poems appeared in 1890.

In 1862 Dickinson started her life long correspondence and friendship with Thomas Wentworth Higginson (1823-1911), a writer and reformer, who commanded during the Civil War the first troop of African-American soldiers. Higginson later published Army Life in a Black Regiment in 1870. On of the four poems he received from Dickinson was the famous 'Safe in their Alabaster Chambers.'

::: There's Been a Death in the Opposite House :::

by Emily Dickinson

There's been a death in the opposite house
As lately as today.
I know it by the numb look
Such houses have alway.
The neighbours rustle in and out,
The doctor drives away.
A window opens like a pod,
Abrupt, mechanically;

Somebody flings a mattress out, -
The children hurry by;
They wonder if It died on that, -
I used to when a boy.

The minister goes stiffly in
As if the house were his,
And he owned all the mourners now,
And little boys besides;

And then the milliner, and the man
Of the appalling trade,
To take the measure of the house.
There'll be that dark parade

Of tassels and of coaches soon;
It's easy as a sign, -
The intuition of the news
In just a country town.

Monster Me

p/s: think my lil brother will sure wants to buy me with this cute evil shirt. gaga.

I think I’m a monster. There’s monster that has transposed his/her existence to my entire character. I find it totally weird by saying this but this is the fact truth. Regardless on what has happening in my family – I got to say that I’m sick, sort of hysterically intolerant to my siblings, especially to the youngest ones. I’d always treated him bad – like he has done on earth an incredible mistake that he can just forget the forgiveness from me. Has this unconditional driven behavior sounds ever happen in your life, somebody’s in your family? Might considerably be. But only to some psychopaths unsub like me, I guess.

Whatever your point of statements is, I appreciated it. I mean, heck I don’t really care about it man! I sincerely think I can overcome that improper behavior like I’d mentioned but again, (there’s surely lots more I don’t intended to tell!) it’s the matter of time. But if I really want to solve it then I MUST seriously starts to find ways on how am I going to manage/dissolve kind of problem I suffered.

How does it feel to be like trapped in your own created world?

Laws & Statues

it clearly knows that i am never interested inlearning i mean like to digging in darn details about laws or whatever things involving with it. Laws was undoubtedly been practising like from past several decades and there's thousand proofs also that been shown in portraying how important the law is. but in order to keeps the right track throughout the life of a man it was rather hard to works/prove on what's actually right thing instead of just saying what is right/wrong . so that's the major function of having law in our life i guess.

i'm currently doing the episodic synopsis of 17-20 of Rashid & Co whish is then i think was the toughest episodes/part of this drama series. Richard has stressed out to do some environmental/illegal logging case throughout these (4) continuous episodes. i'm working on it now and so i do, really do hope Richard & Sharlyza would like the idea as i've dicussed this interesting case together with Kak Liza (my ED)

Associating Your Thoughts

FYI i'm the one who just loved to put up likely an illustration initially before i started writing on my blog. the reason i'm doing this is just because i myself considered it(that paricular random picked illustration) as the picture of my sincere expression. i realized it does not necessarily fits into real situation but let just leave it that way - my way of associating graphic with thoughts. duh! what did i had blurbed about...? nvm i'm about to starts working on my job as usual, so later!

A Complete Unfairness Part I

It's Saturday night and hell yeah..i'm just done watch Project Runway Malaysia nearly 11p.m at this nite. all i can say is pathetic. i'm kind of shocked and dramatically suprised to see it was Nurita Harith who finally has to goes off this week. i think all the loyal viewers and left designers would definitely thought the same as mine.

truth is again, i'm not as stupidly holds a prejudice sense against Mumtaz(which is the one who've still managed to be lived in this competition after some series of tragic The-Worst-Two more than 5 times, i guess!)i'm neither fan of Nurita Harith but i do think she has a very attitude sense in fashion yet it's too early to see that she has already out of this intense competition. it was hurts to Nurita itself, for sure because she had to lose her future precious chance over duh Mumtaz..but yeah I know the journey of Nurita Harith in becoming next big Malaysia fashion designer would not simply just fade away though we no longer sees her in Project Runway Malaysia TV screen. all in all i wish Nurita a very best of luck in her future designs ahead. anyways, i'm waiting to see her aesthetic designs efforts someday then.

tomorrow is sure NO wasted-playing time after i've been just lazying all around today. dear God, please grant me with the WILL, DETERMINATION and SPIRIT as i need to finish my wholesome R&Co scripts. erghh!!